Puppies and Patience, How Harrison is Making Me a Better Human Being

Harrison did something the other night he has never done before…he peed on my bed. He squatted down on my brand new, beloved ivory bedspread, and peed. I was beyond livid. Why, I ask, after a year of peeing outside does he suddenly decide to pee on my place of rest?

I ordered him out of the room and shut the door. Apparently this was torturous for him since he’s attached to my butt at all hours of the day, and he lay outside my door whimpering while I seethed.

I immediately did what any dog owner looking for answers does and googled “Why do dogs pee on beds?” Many people think dogs are expressing their anger when they pee on beloved couches or clothes, but from my past dog training experience, I know that dogs are not vindictive creatures (that’s what cats are for).

After reading all the potential reasons (of which, there are many) my anger slowly ebbed. I walked over to the door and saw this face:

The same worried, furrowed brows that say “Do you still love me?” (or in the case of the photo above, terrified brows that say “Get me off this boat!”). My heart instantly melted and within minutes, Harrison was back up on the bed (after I removed the bedspread to wash, of course).

So what does this mean in the grand scheme of things? I realize that I forgive Harrison for any and all transgressions ten times faster than I forgive my boyfriend, friends or coworkers. Even when he is being mischievous, I don’t harbor anger about his actions. Why? Because I have no doubt in his intentions and know beyond a shadow of a doubt he loves me. In short, I trust him.

I’m not sure if I’m the only one who struggles with this, but I often have pangs of self-doubt. I wonder if my friends really like me, or my coworkers actually value having me on the team. I find it hard to trust, and to give people the benefit of the doubt. I have found lately though, that the more I try to put trust in others, the less anger I feel.

After all, if Harrison can brave his fear of canoes simply because he trusts me to protect him, I can put my trust in others to love and support me.

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